After having a good Thursday, I allowed my Friday and Saturday to be horrible. Christmas cookies, candy, pizza, etc. I am disappointed in myself, but I know what to do. I’m declaring myself back on track.
My current body weight is 365 pounds. I am unhappy about this number, and I’m going to do something about it. I’m heading to the pool this afternoon, and I’m also eating well and drinking lots of water. A lot of my weight (approximately 20 lbs) is fluid retention.
Look at how my appearance has changed due to the increased weight:
Does that expression on my face look familiar? It looks similar to my “before” picture. I feel fat and bloated. It doesn’t feel good at all. I’m not depressed or upset. I’m PISSED! I’m pissed at myself for allowing things to get so far out of control that I gained this much weight. The lowest that I got my weight down to was 312 pounds. So, I’ve put on 53 pounds. I’ve got some work to do. No more sitting around feeling sorry for myself. I’ve got too much work that needs to be done to do that. I’m going to bring my cheery smile back.
Operation Dickies
I recently ordered some new pants for work (because I blew out 2 pair from my weight gain). I ordered some Dickies size 52 work pants and here’s how they fit:
Yep, they won’t fasten. Not even close.
My goal is to fit into these babies soon. I’m thinking after 2-3 months of good, old fashioned hard work, I’ll be able to wear these pants.
Let’s do this!
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You can do this.Just see it as a speed bump.Keep positive thoughts.
Southgirl
Hi , I comment on you a few post ago regarding the slippery slope you are on. You are on the edge you have slip but you are hanging on. All you need to do is reach up and pull yourself up, don’t let go. You can do this! Planning has always help you. You need to plan your meals again. Make a plan for when you lose control and eat. You like sweet , then eat fruits, you like salt make healthy kale chips or squash baked fries. It’s one thing to binge but binging on crap makes things just that much worst. This is weird but have you ever thought of taking a healthy cooking class like vegan or gutten free cooking? You should thing about it. It can open up how you view and taste food. Good luck !
It looks like you are trying to channel your anger in a positive way by taking action. It’s tough this weightloss thing!! I lost 50 pounds I have put 20 of those pounds back on but I have been back on track for almost three weeks now and I have totally elimanted anything that triggers my binges it’s been hard since it is the holidays but I realize if I crave a certain food after having a serving size and can’t stop at one then I will have none. So no cookies, pies, fudge, chocholate and pizza for me! I am trying to make this a life long thing. It is not worth it in the long run.
Best thing you can do is forgive yourself, take action, and make a plan for next time. I know once I accepted I could not eat cookies or pizza ( both triggers for me) ,then not eating them became a relief. And a tool for recovery.
You are not alone.
Here’s to the dickies fitting soon and for the patience , strength, courage, and clarity of mind. Merry Christmas. Karen P.
Nothing worse than trying to lose the weight that you’ve already lost over and over again.
Depressing.
This is the toughest time of year to diet! I don’t know if you’re a spiritual person but know that you are in my prayers for a healthy and happy New Year.
You can do it! Just keep thinking of how far you have come! So proud of you and so inspired by you!
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